This evening I talked with someone from my past who still makes my heart beat harder and faster and makes me lightheaded and raises my body temperature several degrees. Just chatting again brought back so many old feelings and memories. There are very few people who have ever done this to me. So many regrets. Timing, as always, is not on my side. It wasn’t then and it isn’t now. It may never be.
I’m not upset. Quite frankly it’s rather nice to know that I still have the capacity to feel that way. It really is a bittersweet pain.